Monday, January 30, 2012
We all make mistakes, right? You can't be afraid of mistakes. Sometimes, even when you're pretty sure
you're going to end up hurt, or just back where you started, you just have to go for it and try something.
I tried something very new to me recently. I got burned. Well, more like I'm still in the process of getting burned.
I knew going into this experience that it would probably not end well. But I had to do it.
I have no regrets. For what it was, it was absolutely worth it, and I will carry the memories of it with me forever.
Do I wish things had happened differently? Not really, if I'm honest with myself. I'm okay with life
(and the people in it) being imperfect. I'm becoming okay with uncertainty, change, challenge, and hurt.
Not that I'm seeking out pain, but I'm accepting it.
I'm really working on rising above. Sometimes I sink into experiences, sometimes I get swept away by them.
But after that it's time to rise above, get my 'big picture' perspective back. Glean from them-
what do I want more of, and what can I do without? What parts are 'me,' and what parts do not reflect who I want to be?
We can't change or control people. Sometimes we can't change or control circumstances.
But we can change our expectations, perceptions and interactions.
I've wasted a lot of energy in my life lamenting over what and who I can't change or control.
I really want to put that energy back into myself, to learn how to flow around obstacles
rather than trying to move them out of the way. To learn that when a door is shut, a lot of times
whatever is behind it is not something I need, and rather than tugging on the knob with all my might,
my energy is better spent trying the next door.