Monday, January 30, 2012


We all make mistakes, right? You can't be afraid of mistakes. Sometimes, even when you're pretty sure
you're going to end up hurt, or just back where you started, you just have to go for it and try something.

I tried something very new to me recently. I got burned. Well, more like I'm still in the process of getting burned.
I knew going into this experience that it would probably not end well. But I had to do it.
I have no regrets. For what it was, it was absolutely worth it, and I will carry the memories of it with me forever.

Do I wish things had happened differently? Not really, if I'm honest with myself. I'm okay with life
(and the people in it) being imperfect. I'm becoming okay with uncertainty, change, challenge, and hurt.
Not that I'm seeking out pain, but I'm accepting it.

I'm really working on rising above. Sometimes I sink into experiences, sometimes I get swept away by them.
But after that it's time to rise above, get my 'big picture' perspective back. Glean from them-
what do I want more of, and what can I do without? What parts are 'me,' and what parts do not reflect who I want to be?

We can't change or control people. Sometimes we can't change or control circumstances.
But we can change our expectations, perceptions and interactions.

I've wasted a lot of energy in my life lamenting over what and who I can't change or control.
I really want to put that energy back into myself, to learn how to flow around obstacles
rather than trying to move them out of the way. To learn that when a door is shut, a lot of times
whatever is behind it is not something I need, and rather than tugging on the knob with all my might,
my energy is better spent trying the next door.

Love Ewe

Possibly the cutest thing ever. I will never be able to hear that song again without picturing this!


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Why Is It...

Sometimes we really have to convince ourselves to do something that is good for us.

Sometimes we really have to convince ourselves that something (or someone) is a very destructive habit and it's time to break away.

Why is that? Why are the things that free us so difficult to do and the things that harm us so hard to let go of?

Why is it so hard to believe that we deserve better?

Why is it so easy to let people walk all over us and just think 'that's the way they are' or 'that's the way things are' or 'we can never have it all?'

Why are we sometimes irresistibly drawn to someone who is 'bad on paper' in every way, and we leave the one who is 'good on paper' in the wings gathering dust?

Why does chemistry override logic?

These are the questions I've been asking myself lately.

Reading Rachael's 'Love Yourself' post from a couple days ago really helped with my perspective.

I'm reading and re-reading those words.

Because I DO deserve better. And so do you, friends.

Remember that. And remind me too, while you're at it. ;)

Friday, January 20, 2012

Nerd Alert: Star Wars iPhone Cases

Have I told you guys how much I adore Star Wars lately?
I can't choose a favorite.
(Although the Jed Eye Chart, Pop Art Storm Trooper, Keep Calm Yoda Quote, and the Falcon are all in the running.)

Where to get them:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Don't Complain...

When a soldier comes home, he finds it hard.... listen to his son whine about being bored. keep a straight face when people complain about potholes. be tolerant of people who complain about the hassle of getting ready for work. be understanding when a co-worker complains about a bad night's sleep. be silent when people pray to God for a new car. control his panic when his wife tells him he needs to drive slower. be compassionate when a businessman expresses a fear of flying. keep from laughing when anxious parents say they're afraid to send their kids off to summer camp. keep from ridiculing someone who complains about hot weather. control his frustration when a colleague gripes about his coffee being cold. remain calm when his daughter complains about having to walk the dog. be civil to people who complain about their jobs. just walk away when someone says they only get two weeks of vacation a year. be forgiving when someone says how hard it is to have a new baby in the house.

The only thing harder than being a Soldier....

Is loving one.

Thankful Thursday: It's There.

I didn't feel like posting tonight.
But once I started thinking of things I'm thankful for,
I realized all you have to do is look for something to be thankful for, and you'll find it.
It's there.





Free healthy food at work.

My first full paycheck with the salary I was promised 7 months ago.

Being motivated to clean my house this morning so I could come home and relax after work.

Being listened to and valued by my boss.

My mom being in the same city and state as I am right now.

Playing chess with family and friends on my phone.

All of the wonderful things that can be learned from the internet.

Cheesy songs that make me belt them out, dance like a goon, and feel wonderful.
{like this onethis one and this one}

Finding a stash of chicken corn chowder in my freezer.

Encouragement from friends.

My brother Jeff walking away unharmed from a scary truck crash in the snow.

The prospect of another amazing Reiki and massage session soon.


{image: Hollywood Palm Trees via my iPhone}

Monday, January 16, 2012

The City by the Bay: Japanese Tea Garden

What a pretty, pretty place. So peaceful. 
(all except finding the restrooms- we hustled in a big loop all the way around it til we found them just in time! ;)

More from our first trip to San Francisco:

The City by the Bay
First Morning
First Day
Wandering, Shopping, and Lunch
Sunny Afternoon
Second Morning
Golden Gate

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Top 8

Eight of my favorite things about life right now:

Trying new cocktails

Exploring new cities

Buying out-of-my-comfort-zone clothing items and being determined to rock them

Funny friends

Eating out a lot, and then enjoying cooking in

Amusing graffiti

Learning to let go of stress instead of carrying it around with me

Letting go of expectations, and liking and loving people more because of it

P.S. A few more, since I can never limit myself with these kinds of lists: coming home and feeling home, seeing how strong and independent my friends are, my hilarious brothers, and discovering new-to-me talent!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Thankful Thursday: Swelling Heart

Folks, my heart is just swelling with gratitude this morning.

And it feels so good, because it's been awhile.

Lately practicing gratitude has been just that- a practice.

But today, it's coming out all on its own.


For the faces I saw and the voices I heard around me at my birthday dinner last night. My best friends in this world, all around one table.

For the fun I had getting dressed up and having a fancy meal (with not so fancy manners).

For the two hour, life-enhancing massage and energy healing session I had yesterday with a talented old friend. I felt like a new person afterward- more open and connected than I'd been in a very long time. Too long. I hope to continue working with him more regularly now!

For the talk I had with a new kindred spirit late into the new hours of my birthday morning. The inspiration and advice we exchange is priceless. My life continues to change for the better because of our friendship. Plus we have so much fun!

For my family's booming business, and the hope that I will be able to contribute to their success, even if only in small ways.

For my best friend Shawn- he has such patience with me, and generosity with his time, energy and money. He's seen me at my best and at my worst (and vice versa). He is a part of me and a member of my family who is loved every bit as much as any of the biological ones. I could not imagine my life without him in it. The sense of humor we share is a unique one, and I love knowing there is someone out there at any given time who will get my jokes.

For my PLP- I sometimes take her for granted, forget that not everyone is fortunate enough to have a friend who is more like a sister. She 'gets' me more than I get myself sometimes. I am so happy I have her as a companion for this journey of life. She never steers me wrong and is there to help pick me up when I stumble. I can talk to her about anything in the world without censoring myself. She has such effortless style and is a tough cookie, two of the many things I admire about her.

For my best friend Daniel- someone who is always there, whether we are in the same city or state or not. I always know we can come back together and share laughter or misery. We always accept each other, even if we don't agree with each others choices. We've grown up together this far, and I imagine we'll be (literally) old friends with our beers on the porch laughing and telling stories of the good ol' days.

For my best friend Adam- another awesome lifer who I always have in my thoughts, regardless of the distance between us or how long it's been since we've seen each other last. We have seen each other go through everything but the kitchen sink, and he is like a brother from another mother. Everyone I know loves him too, because he's infectiously cool.

For the other close friends I have- I could sit here and sing their praises to you for hours.

What about you guys? Who are the people in your life making your heart swell?  What do you do to get connected?

{image: PLP and I at our friends' wedding last summer}

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Is It?

{Source: Thanks Swiss Miss}

Intentions For My 30th Year

To look for what I can offer to any given situation

To spend time regularly breathing and grounding

To use exercise as a greeting of my days

To follow opportunity

To remember that stress can be a signpost when it's time to change direction, whether it be in life or simply in attitude

To get in deeper touch with my musical roots

To reboot when I need to by refocusing on the positive

To make decisions instead of feeling trapped

To venture to new places in visit and in residence

To experience deep and exhilarating connection

To practice acceptance: of myself, of situations, of others

{image: my birthday sunrise}

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Thankful Thursday: Going Strong

Tonight, I'm Thankful:

For the water cup with a lid and straw I got in my stocking this year so I don't have to waste a paper cup every day at work.

For the fact that my parents have filled a stocking for me 29 years in a row.

That I got to hear both my parents' voices tonight.

That I tried a new class (Capoeira) and loved it- it challenged me mentally and physically (I'm still sore three days later!) and was fun.

For friends that step in and help out with things at my restaurant so I don't have to bring in pain-in-the-you-know-what technicians.

For my home. I still love having my own space, my sanctuary.

For my other home with my family up in Idaho.

For working out regularly and feeling great because of it.

For my thirtieth birthday coming up next week. So excited for this age!

For my big (and growing) movie collection (many of them gifts from family).

That my three-month engine swap saga will soon be brought to a close.

That I'm going to LA next weekend with two of my favorite girls, and will get to hang out with more of my favorites, some of whom I haven't seen in years!

For my plans for the tattoos I'm giving myself as a birthday present. So cute and fun!

For every time my car starts, and every time it gets me to my destination.

That I have wonderful kindred spirits for friends. I really have someone to talk to about any subject I can think of!

For my deep pool blue nail color. So pretty.

For Trader Joe's turkey meatballs and sweet potato fries. I never tire of this combo!

For the huge boom my dad's business is going through right now, and that the whole family is pitching in to aid in the growth.

{image: Mom didn't know I caught her in the midst of her Christmas cookie baking. :}

Monday, January 2, 2012


I've been away from the blog, just living, for the past few weeks.

I'm liking this pace of posting when I feel inspired to, rather than trying to keep a schedule
(we have enough of those in our lives, don't we??)

I'm feeling some posts coming on- reflecting on last year and anticipating the new one
we are celebrating.

For now, though, I just wanted to check in and say Hi. :)